Are you a Screamer?

So I have realized something over the past 8 years...

I am a screamer.

There, I’ve confessed.

I never wanted to be or thought I would be. In fact, I blame my husband! If it wasn’t for him, I would be able to stay completely in control. He is a screamer. He did it first. It is his fault.

But here we are 3 kids later and I scream, yell and sometimes stomp my feet!! I am not proud. In fact, I’m still a bit confused. How and when did I lose control? I can’t remember my first time and now it is just habit I guess…

I have read books, set goals, failed and even tried again. No luck. I just can’t seem to keep my mouth shut. I do better when we have visitors! Why that is, I know not!

I do know I HAVE to get a handle on it. I hate feeling so out of control! Besides, the buggy kids are starting to yell back! Grrr!!

Alone

Is it terrible to want to be alone, to actually like spending time all by myself?


I don’t think I am a loner, depressed or introverted, weird maybe. I have just always liked my “downtime” A LOT! Now I am a Mom. No alone time. Ever.

The shower (anything in the bathroom for that matter) is shared with either a 2 year old or boys pounding on the door, desperately trying to tell me how the other is trying to kill them.

I actually prefer to go shopping at midnight. It is MY time! Well, me and the night stockers... I love walking on the beach, just me and my thoughts. I love an empty house, the TV and getting to pull out all my misc projects, without worrying about who is going to step on what (and not having to share my chocolate).

My AT is wonderful to let me “sleep” in; which really means listening to all the commotion (nothing can be done quietly in my world). He also takes the kids to the park, so I can make dinner ALONE. He has even taken the boys camping and left me alone… FOR THE WEEKEND! Bless Him!! Occasionally I get a bath! And for 10 glorious minutes I am alone! Then 3 babies are pounding at the door…

Flickr - Thanks wanderinghome

Child Abuse?

This might take a moment to get to the point, patience is required!

We recently just returned from living in New Zealand, which is a post for another day. Before we left I bought a Phil & Teds Travel Cot for our 2 year old. Best purchase ever! I love it! It folded down so small it fit in her luggage. We used it as her bed the entire time, and now that we are home she still uses it for her everyday bed.




Just for the record it is a stock photo. My baby is not as doll like, or young and she has yet to sleep outside, in the sun. If you notice in the picture, the bed has a top that zips closed to keep out bugs and protect your child sleeping outside from UV Rays (Really, who doesn’t put their babies outside to sleep in the sun?).

The problem is (No, I am not feeling guilty that my daughter's bed is a travel cot! That has nothing to do with my concern! *sigh* My question is worse...) she has discovered how to climb out. I put her down for a much needed nap and 2 minutes later I hear a "Hi Mama!" As cute and sweet as her excitement is in her new found freedom. She (no I!) needs her naptime. So today... I zipped her in!

So here is my question... Is it considered just wrong to zip your daughter into bed? I’m kinda struggling... and may just call Child Services on myself...